I'm going to make it through this year. Even if it kills ME

This year has been one of the hardest years of my life to get through it may not look like it from this photo taking the other day but I've been extremely depressed .unhappy you feel like the world and it's weight with too much to bear to the point where I didn't even contemplated suicide.. this year I lost and I thought was a love of my life that betrayed me and hurt me in ways that resembled nothing of the word love and things that I couldn't believe were fathomable to do to someone that you claim to love they were extremely toxic andvery abusive . They were a narcissist and I love them and gave them five years of my heart and soul in the midst of all that.my mother passed away  and I don't have much other family no friends anymore that I'm close to so I was left to battle this demon of depression which I have struggled with most of my life but this time it had me unable to eat unable to care for myself and I wasn't sleeping at all. Luckily I have my body which I can still be active with and my mind that can help preserve me I started walking more riding my bicycle and trying to understand my life and what was going on .. I'm proud to say I'm finally feeling myself again and it's a long slow journey I have ahead of me and I just wanted to write this in case anyone else is feeling alone and lost out there that things can get better and they will get better believe in yourself and when the storms of life get too heavy to bear brace yourself and wait is too shall pass life is all about balance and the yin and yang always comes through don't give up you are worth it I love all of you. Thank you for reading it I'm sorry for the long post  keep fighting the good fight.d

on't be afraid to die. be afraid not to live and live for those who can't