我要熬過這一年。即使它會殺死我

今年是我人生中最艱難的一年,從前幾天拍的照片看起來可能不像,但我一直非常沮喪。不開心,感覺世界和它的重量太重了,我甚至沒有想過自殺。今年我失去了我生命中的摯愛,她背叛了我,傷害了我,這與愛這個詞一點也不相符,我無法相信我竟然可以對一個你聲稱愛的人做出這種事,他們非常毒害人,非常虐待人。他們很自戀,我愛他們,在這一切之中,我把我的五年心血都給了他們。我的母親去世了,我沒有其他親人,也沒有親近的朋友,所以我只能與抑鬱這個惡魔作鬥爭,我一生中大部分時間都在與之抗爭,但這一次,我無法進食,無法照顧自己,根本睡不著覺。幸運的是,我的身體還能活動,我的大腦也能幫助我保持健康。我開始多走路、騎自行車,並試著理解我的生活和正在發生的事情。我很自豪地說,我終於找回了自我,前面還有一段漫長而緩慢的旅程,我只是想寫下這些,以防其他人感到孤獨和迷茫,相信事情會好轉,而且會越來越好。相信自己,當生活的風暴變得難以承受時,振作起來,等待它過去。生活就是平衡,陰陽總是會交替出現,不要放棄,你值得擁有。我愛你們所有人。謝謝你們閱讀這篇文章,很抱歉寫了這麼長的文章,繼續為正義而戰。

 

不要害怕死亡。害怕不活,為那些不能活的人而活我要熬過這一年。即使它會殺死我

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    Jerry Juarez
    Thank you for your post. I understand where you are coming from. I was being physically, mentally and  financially abused my fiance. He's been out of my life for 1 1/2  yrs .  Our dog kept me from going into a deep depression; she would lick and cuddle even more than in the past . Our walks are her time and I  let her decide the how long and far we walk. 9 months ago she started to take longer walks. Now, We walk about 10 to 15 miles day . I don't feel like my like is cloudy, foggy, gloomy life anymore. The morning sunshine, fresh air, a brisk walk with a dog that gives you unconditional love really does wonders for the body, mind and soul. Depression is a very difficult hole to climb out of but it can be done with exercise, fresh air and a positive attitude.
    Keep up the hard work!
    
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